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I want to say alot
i have my mind swirling with thoughts
my eyes would want to burst with tears
but to scared to go out
to face the facts that is so random in my head
To stand up to what i believe
To let myself return to my old self that once it had been me
to scream
shout
talk
whisper
I'm forced to fake a smile a laugh everyday of my life
One thing would save me
and you know what
you know what that thing that would save me
Just one damn thing
that will help me intercourse with myself
why cant you understand?
*tear*
This is life to me in the meantime
and here i say again
there is one thing that would save me
and you know what that thing is

News-flash

This post is all about celeberties....
*News-flash # 1 Kevin Jonas Jr is has proposed to his Girlfriend Danielle Deleasa and she gladely accepted to marry the 21 year old Celebrity quote: From Kevin Sr. and Denise Jonas - Our hearts are filled with joy today and we are happy to share with you that our son Kevin has asked Danielle Deleasa for her hand in marriage. Her answer was yes and it is such a blessing that she will be joining our family. Kevin and Danielle have not yet set a date. Family is very dear to us and we hope we have raised Kevin to be a wonderful man and husband." (they have posted this pic and the words on facebook and some other sites here )

*News-flash # 2 GG (Gossip Girl is adding a new member to their cast which is Hillary Duff which will play the role of a celebrity that came to NYC to settle down and becomes Dan Humphry's Girlfriend. click here for the source
and you'll have more to come.
as some famous show says
XOXO
Gossip Girl

a lazzzy blogger here

I know i know i know!!!
i have been a lazzy blogger around here i haven't posted comment to comments...
i haven't wrote alot laaaatlyy!!
i have been just been a lazzy thing lately also since i quit my job ( dont ask mee why coz im not gonna answer its personel matters)
anywaay i did get a BB curve 8900 as a graduation gift from my parents and the next thing i know is the whole house is also getting BB so why do i feel its no longer as a graduation gift???????????????????
i just saw the movie "Passnegers" for Anne Hatheway... its a Number one must seee movie!!
anywaaay i gotta goo coz in a matter of minutes im going to my aunts to congratulate my couzin for passing thanawiya 3amaaa!!
BBIL ( means Blog blogging issues later)

My Graduation 2009!!

Well hear i did it i really really really graduated!!!
It was amazing it was spectacular.. on the other hand it has the meaning of this life that i once had is no longer is with us!!
anyhow it was as i said the most memorable moment in my life!! I'm overwhelmed!!!
Im Hoping to upload Our Nasheeda (methel najma) that is made especially for us!!
but i dont know how so help me here!!!
i've got presents from my sisters, brother, sister-in-law, aunt, and my uncle's wife (thank you all for those great presents) here they are:
i went to asajel bel jam3a w at last i decided kuliyat eladaab English bs i have to wait for the acceptance ed3oooulyy!! here is the pic:

anyhow how are you???

Today is my graduation just in couple of hours (inshallah) wish me luck and cross your fingers!!

8 things tagged!!

8 things im looking forward to:
1. graduation party (18th of june)
2. Getting the nationalty.
3. submitting into KU.
4. Painting.
5. getting my Blackberry Curve.
6. eating Dinner ;pP.
7. The first day of college.
8. Attending someone's wedding.

8 things i wish i could do:
1. Fly .
2. Record a private song in a pro studio.
3. Do a Pro photoshoot.
4. Being able to control my life.
5. Go to the roof and scream to the top of my lungs!
6. Being married this instant.
7. ski diving.
8. Roaming the world Alone!!

8 things i love:
1. myself.
2. My bookshelf.
3. My family.
4. My friends.
5. My Mac.
6. Chocolates.
7. Italian Food.
8. Movies.

8 things i did Yesterday:
1. Ate.
2. Logged on facebook.
3. Watched movie after movie.
4. Texted like a dozen msgs.
5. talked.
6. thought alot.
7. read a book.
8. messed with the iPod.

8 shows i watch:
1. 90210 (LOVE)
2. Gossip girl. (LOVE)
3. Gilmore girls.
4. How i met your mother.
5. Everwood. (LIKE THE MOST FAVORITE)
6. One tree hill.
7. Hannah montana.
8. Smallville.

I tag everyone who read this!

And Here may the Job begin!!

I AM A GRADUATE

WOW!!! I REALLY DID IT!!
IM OFFICIALLY A GRADUATE!!! (still the party is not until 18/6)
WHat am i feeling??
well lets see...:
Happy
Sad
Paranoid
and EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN!!
I dont know what to say except this:
TOGETHER OR APART YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN THE HEART SENIORS 2009!
LOVE YOU!!!!!

Countdown

I'm writing this in the iPod from this new program called blog writing I guess so: 1. Sorry for the no picture 2. Sorry for the mispelling if there is. 3. I think I'm going to this more often (btw seems amusing)!!!!! So let's get back of the subject I only have few days to graduation, Yup!! To the fourth of june is our last exams day and to the eighteenth of June to the actua graduation party!!!! So yaaaay!!! But then again it's heartbreaking to see that I'm no longer living the life that I did have and no longer have those precious, trustworthy, fifteen, lovable girls my friends!!!! I'm gonna miss them a lot!!!!! LOVE YOU FROM ALL MY HEART!!!! See you bloggers till I could!!! P.s.: wish me luck!!!!

My new room!!

At last im stable to a room!! a new room!! its so much bigger and nicer!! and i've been sleeping in it since thursday!!
but coz its to big a room my mom said you cant be there alone and i had the priority of getting that room well because im the oldest so in that i get to choose who i will be with and of course i choose the most one who less complained and less to get in a fight with me (on the other hand she is a morning person which im not) and the closest age to me which is three yrs younger!! here you go with its pictures (the big bed is mines):
i hope you liked it